I'm finally getting to that point where I feel good enough to WANT to do something but I really can't.The swelling in my head in combo with my POTS symptoms is making the world a tilt-a-whorl so I'm pretty set with sitting. I can't manage to keep a nicely regulated body temperature across the board. This is my first surgery since the POTS diagnosis so I'm sure it's a normal thing there. My head says that I should be doing work and running errands but making lunch is enough to knock me out for a few hours right now. So what do I do when I'm stuck in a chair for hours at a time, by myself, with very limited talking? The dangerous act of thinking. Thinking about everything from past mistakes, to art I want to try to make, to people I wonder about... I start second guessing the productivity of my very existence. Ahh, deep. But that's where I'm at right now. And this blog gives me purpose. Stay blessed all. I'll post more soon when I'm a bit more chipper.
I know the feeling. Thanks for sharing. And remember, due to the faulty connective tissue complications, your healing time will be doubled, at least. Give yourself that. And give yourself a break. None of us asked for this. But, it's our cross to bear, and bear it we shall. Get well in time... (as apposed to the traditional "Get well soon")
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